Satisfy My Soul.

I don’t understand how they’re the class of 2013 in the promo, but Cam’s death is still suppose to be in the 2012 school year.

For one of my summer projects I will be making an animation light box. This ought to be fun.

I’m starting to dig guys who are 5’10 and above. I would really like to date someone who’s 6’0, but would it be awkward since I’m 4’11? Also, I’m starting to be attracted to guys with just a little chest hair now. I guess growing up has changed my taste in men a bit. 

So gimme an Andy Gibb look alike! He was around 5’8, nonetheless still a sexy man!

Have you ever been friends with someone that was like your opposite, yet you have so much in common? I did, twice. I thought once was lucky. Neither friendship was the same though. Although with both of the friends they were far more into dating than I. I think that’s one of the things I admired about both. I could have dated just about as many guys as they have, but I didn’t. Simply because I’ve always had a fear of becoming too close to a guy and end up with a broken heart. I never take chances when it comes to relationships. I just coldly push guys away when things become too flirty. I guess that’s one reason why a few guys have called me “heartless”. Sometimes I think about all the guys I let pass me by and the potential relationships I could of had.

The closest thing to a relationship recently was with this guy I used to go to school with that I never really talked to much at first. We were on a flirty level with playful I love/miss you’s but nothing serious. Until it turned to babe/baby and I couldn’t handle it. I enjoyed it, but then I did what I usually do. Act as if I’m not interested. Heck I was even to the point where I was trying to suggest other girls. After that, our conversations become shorter and shorter. The last time we talked on the phone he told me that he loved me, not in a romantic way, but more of a goodbye I guess. He had a girlfriend by then, so I didn’t feel comfortable saying it back. And that was it.

Both of my old best friends would have taken the chance. Even if there would have been heartbreak in the end, at least they would have gone for it. I’ve dated in the past, but nothing serious. Willing to be head over heels in love is something I never gave the chance. Both girls would have heart breaks and shed tears whenever their relationships ended, but then I always remember how happy they were with that person. And how they became happy all over again with someone else. What’s the point of worrying about a relationship going wrong that hasn’t even started yet? It’s like crying over spilled milk I haven’t even purchased yet. 

EDIT: Plus I’m very shy so I guess that’s another reason why.

It’s almost 5am and I should have been sleeping hours ago. I have to try to make it to both of my cousins’ birthday parties later on. Plus, I feel like watching Pocahontas. What kind of excuse for a 21 year old is this “Sorry you two, I wanted to go to both your parties but I overslept all day because I stayed up all night watching Pocahontas”. 

This will probably be the only post I tag Dzhokhar simply because I’d rather not deal with annoying messages on here. First off, I’m going to keep this as neutral as possible. Like many of you on here, I have sympathy for Dzhokhar “Jahar” Tsarnaev for plenty of reasons. In fact this whole thing hits pretty close to home since my former classmate, Harlem, could face the death penalty if convicted. On the news they portrayed Harlem as a cold blooded monster, a thug, and changed the story constantly on what happened. He’s even charged with two capital murders when he should only be charged with one. What he did was horrible and he feels terrible, but the media didn’t mention one time how he was in a coma. Harlem is only 21 and his life will no longer be the same. Even the district attorney over his case said that we wants Harlem to die.

Now on to Jahar, I feel like I’ve put more thought into his situation. Yes, I’ve seen the reports on the news and read the affidavit. I also read things that his friends said about his character. Overall, you just never know the whole story. To be honest, it really irks and disgusts the heck out of me how people say he should be brutally punished. Seriously, these people have really sick minds. You know just as much about his life as the people who support him. The people who know him personally know more about him than you’ll hear on the news. I’m not saying I think there’s a secret plot going on, I just know never be too quick to judge. Personally, I’m against the death penalty and I have a strong faith in God. So yes, pray for Jahar. Anyone’s life can be turned around. I’m not saying he’s guilty or innocent. There’s too many flaws right now. We are talking about a young man who is only 19 years old. 

With Harlem, I’ve seen comments on news articles online saying he should be starved to death and other inhumane things. And it really hurts to see people write such harsh things about someone who used to make you laugh and smile. I haven’t communicated much with Harlem since high school, so I cannot give details on his personality leading up to his situation. Jahar has people backing him who were still in his life so that’s why I find their opinions more credible. My heart goes out to Jahar & his friends and family. 

Don’t believe everything you hear. Apparently Harlem “confessed” when he was in a coma. How much sense does that make? Harlem did kill that day, but didn’t do all they said he did. But remember that no one’s situation is the same. There are people who proved their innocence. There are innocent people serving time, and people who did some things, but not all they’re being charged for. Heck, I know a case when the police killed a guy but blamed his co-defendants. You get what I’m saying? He’s still a suspect and you never know what might come up. So supporters, continue to support but don’t come off as fans thus making others seem like jokes. And people against him, try not to continue to sound blood thirsty and evil as you claim he is.