July 2010
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“See what had happened was..”
– Practically black people xD
“I need somebody.. Somebody crazy enough to tell me I will love you till we.....”
– Isles & Glaciers
I watch too many interviews and clips about...
San Antonio ^^
Road trip ;D
lol
I don't even wanna try..
So I just noticed that the guys who made a mark in my life always ended up hurting me in the end more than anyone else. We actually only 2 young men. I’ll just call them [R] and [E]. And idk if I’ll be able to be close to another person again.
Starting with [R]. Basically he was my first real boyfriend. I had crushes on a lot of guys and had chances to go out with them but I just...
He was a manipulator.
I think this past week without him has made me better. And each day/week/month without him I’ll break his hold on me even more so. I want to indeed be his friend, but I have to officially lose any control he has over me.
The people I met back at the hospital in March.
I was at the ER Friday for 1 whole day. And was at the Psychiatric Center; Saturday (day 1), Sunday (day 2), Monday (day 3), Tuesday (day 5)and left Wednesday (day 5) around 1pm. So I was gone for 6 days total..
I don’t know why, but I just wanted to take some time to remember some of them.
Just to name a few that I might write about; Jorge, KeKe, Laprisha, Todd, Shema, Chris, Elizabeth,...
My "dream" guy.
I always hear people talk about their dream guy/girl but I don’t think I ever took time to think about what my dream guy is really.
[Appearance]
-Tattoos. (not too excessive)
-Piercings. (optional though)
-Has a somewhat hip, yet not too flashy style.
-Facial hair.
-Glasses (I just have a thing for dudes with glasses..)
-Something unique that I won’t know about until I meet...
“Extra! Extra! Read all about it. WANTED: Young man, single and free. Experience...”
– Honey Cone
Tattoos! Tattoos! Tattoos!
But I still can’t decide on what I want =/
Tyrone Davis. Gin. 2am. Can't help but cry a bit...
I'm scared I'll have to go back to the hospital..
The last time I was in this emotional state I did some things I regret.. I feel like he’s turned his back on me like he did last time. I’m not saying I’m a harm to myself, but I have to do something to drown out this pain..
“You have crossed the line to the point of no return. What you do from here on...”
– Sunshine Anderson
-Heard It All Before
I just want the best for you..
I’m not even trying to say I’m the best. I’m trying to say you deserve someone better. I’d like to think that I’m the best for you, but that would be vain. You have your flaws but you’re still a great guy. And I’ve said it 828783278 times now that she’s no good. Look at her actions. The way she practically threw herself at you on account of just...
“I gave my all for you
Now my heart’s in two
And I can’t find the...”
“If I were your woman, and you were my man.”
– Gladys Knight
Matthew 7:24-27
Therefore, whoever hears these sayings of Mine, and does them, I will liken him to a wise man who build his house on the rock: and the rain descended, the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house; and it did not fall, for it was founded on the rock. But everyone who hears these sayings of Mine, and does not do them, will be like a foolish man who built his house on the sand: and the...
I think I just care about him too much.
I do want the best for him, even i he doesn’t want to be with me I guess.
I’m not saying I’m perfect, but I’m not a trollop either. I think I’m a good woman and that I could make a man happy. I’m a virgin, I don’t have naked pics sent out to dudes and stuff, I’m smart, fun loving, I have a strong faith in God, I try my best to do righteous things,...
Uneasy Hearts Weigh The Most... SERIOUSLY
“I made the kid who he is now. He does everything I do.”
“I’m serious though. Like the style and everything was because of me.”
“I’ve seen her naked before I even knew her. There are things that I can’t tell you, but let’s just say I’m not as faithful as you think I am.”
These last 3 text tell me a lot.
He’s nothing I...
30 days without Eduardo..
So my friend Cathy told me to take a month off from Eduardo. We talked about me cutting him loose earlier tonight but now it’s around 3am. The date is officially July 12th, 2010. And the start of my first day without Eduardo. It’s going to be hard, but I have to do it. I’ll make updates starting from the end of today marking my first day not talking to him.
Love is dead, while infatuation plagues the earth. A lot of people seem to mistake infatuation for love, even when love is right in their faces. In my opinion love is a feeling that you can try to deny, but when you give in it feels so right. Love can withstand any circumstance. Love will still be there no matter what the person who you love has done. Love is when you just don’t give up and...
Untitled thoughts.. Possibly a song/poem
There I wait in silence and sorrow
waiting for a better tomorrow.
The day when you’ll realize you’re missing a good thing
and in that, I could be your queen.
Not a queen to overpower you
but a queen to match you as a king
A king over our kingdom of love
That’ll one day be blessed by our Holy Father up above.
What I have will last a lifetime.
What I have could change...
How can you mend a broken heart
when it’s constantly being picked at..
“I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget...”
– Maya Angelou
I’m in love with you Eduardo. I have been for a long time and I think deep down inside I don’t want to stop now. I know can make you happy if you can me another chance, but instead you think of the past.. And now you act so bigheaded! It’s like I want you, but I don’t want you.
When you were “my Eduardo” you were sweet, modest and had an innocent charm. Now...
“You ruined it now, I hope you can’t sleep and you dream about it! And when...”
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qwyZ0ji1GRU →
Memories keep my heart from healing.
As time goes by, my heart grows weary
I think of times when you were my guy
Those happy times that now make me cry
I reach out, reach to you for any speck of affection
But you shield me away and my heart feels pain
The things you used to say would make my heart
have feelings of love at it’s best
But now instead, the things you say
make things harder at best..
I’ve always felt...
I think it gets easier each time..
In the beginning it was hard for me to see or think of you with another girl, but now it’s easier to bear.. Like my heart still hurts and I have the feeling of heartache, but the constant thinking and super sadness is gone. Like I know I love you and I want to be with you so bad, but I try not to hold on since you don’t want me anymore..
It’s almost 2am and I’m kinda tired...
