September 2010
Or at least in a committed relationship of some sort.
See, recently (well yesterday) two of my old high school classmates got married. It’s absolutely wonderful that they found love and have a baby on the way, but I’m slightly jealous. I’m not exactly sure why. It’s not like I “liked” the dude I just thought he was cute a while back but I didn’t get to know him or anything. It’s confusing. Maybe because I always planned myself getting married young. I’m 18 and I still have found “the one”. I don’t want to rush into anything though.. I just don’t know :/
I don’t understand why I get blamed for almost every bad thing. I never do shit. My brother is 19 years old, he’s older than me, and my mom yells and screams at me over stuff he does. I can’t control him. She says to me “you can mess up your life but don’t mess up his”. I hardly even talk to my brother because I know she thinks I put him up for the shit he does. She breaks my heart. Well, almost everyone who I consider close breaks my heart. This is why I keep to myself.
What am I going to do?!